im excited to turn 20 tho or at least trying to be there so many things I want to do I have all this free time now im taking. a break from school, I think I should figure out who I am idk it problem sounds like an excuse bc im not sure ill ever fully know who I am but at least have some type of concept of myself I thought I knew who I was for a second but im figuring it out again, my advisor said I should probably go to therapy, he's so sweet, I cried in his office the other day because I felt like I disappointed him and he was making me realize all these things about myself that I was avoiding. he said I should live for myself which might sound obvious, I feel like I betrayed myselff when I hurt other people in my past and it made me question who I am if im capable of hurting others sm, idk idk.