I feel myself returning to myself and it feels so sweet, life is looking worth living again. but sometimes the loneliness is heavy.

I went to flushing today and revisited some spots, everything felt so weird I felt so lonely despite looking forward to the solitude, idk I like being alone but I wish I could share the beauty and moments with someone sometimes. everyone at the food court seemed to be having such a good time with friends. living vicariously will suffice. 

oh this is a still from medicine for melancholy. very beautiful movie with a really good soundtrack. I recommend watching it fs.

amazing soundtrack, also this is def a of its Time movie. very beautiful I love movies that play on the possibilities of life, like they what ifs of letting people in, movies that make you want to talk to strangers or do something alone. Also very important movie that deals with issues that unfortunately have gotten worse; gentrification. being from NY I see it, and its really sad to see this passion for raw community dwindle. I love it and I love both sides. we are defined by society but we also shouldn't let society define us we are everything.